The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly!

The Good:

We've had some good days lately. Saturday was fun...eventually. We went to 'the city' (Toronto) to look at cars for Al. He has a Pontiac Pursuit through his work, but it's just not big enough for all of us to fit in, and with gas prices what they are, it's too expensive to take my van (A Safari) travelling. So, he's looking at a Malibu. Why we traded in our old Malibu, I'll never know :( Anyway, after that we met up with Al's sister Heather. And had a Great time!! Normally I dread visits with them, as her husband is such an arse sometimes. But it was great this time :) We went to Swiss Chalet for dinner and had the Slowest waitress known to man. Al had heather and I in Tears from laughing by the time we were ready to order dessert! She forgot to ask us, and then everytime she walked near, Al would gesture with the dessert menu, and say "Cheesecake!". This went on for about 5 minutes until she finally turned and said "Oh! Did someone want cheesecake?" I damn near lost it for good. I couldn't even see I was laughing and crying so hard! Good times :)

We bought my brother a car seat for his baby. Damion's been riding around in his infant seat for about a month too long now. My brother kept saying they could get him one in July...and it just kept on not happening. So, I talked to Al, and we agreed that we couldn't have it on our conscience any longer to have him riding like that. Off to Wal-Mart we went. Lucky for us there was one on sale for $79!! My Mom offered to pay for half, but we declined, and told her to apply it to the money we had to borrow from them last year. It's so nice to be comfortable enough to be able to do that! And i feel sooo much better knowing Damion is safe again. Man, am I annoyed with my brother though!! ugh. Oh well.

The Bad:
I am so friggin hot. Like, can't breathe, don't come near me/touch me/look at me hot.

My periods have been Awful this month and last :( So very painful, and way heavier tahn I have Ever experienced. I'm thinking of talking to my doctor to see if going on the pill will help any of that, but haven't quite decided yet. I hate taking the pill.

Also under the bad...I bought new bras last week. I think they are too big. They're only 36B! Oh yes people. I think I may need an A Cup!! Sooo annoyed!!!!!!!!! This time last year, I was a 38C-D!!! I have nothing left! When I lay on my back, my ribs stick up higher than my boob! It's awful! Of course, in defence of my body, Jenna(My 9lb-er!) camped out under my ribs for a good part of my pregnancy, so they really stretched and spread in order to accomodate her...and then 2 babies after that, they just gave up :) But still!! Did my boobs have to give up on me!?

The Ugly:

I had an Awful day with Henry today. I was feeling pretty rough, headache, nausea, blah. I guess he could sense it. He was really aggressive. And I broke down. I couldn't do it anymore, so I carried him to his room, and then went in the bathroom for a cry. I hate crying. I hate it even more in front of other people. I get all read and spotchy. bah. I thought I had myself calmed down, and went back downstairs to pack up my stuff. Jenny looked at me and asked what was wrong, and of course, I lost it again. I'm so embarrassed. I just couldn't get through to Henry today. No reinforcer or consequence would make him work again. And he hates being touched, so that doesn't help at times like this, when the rule is to do a physical prompt. Where I take his hand and perform the task with him. Every time I did that, he lost it. I don't know what to do...and I hate that. I felt sooo unqualified to be there today. So lost.

So that's that. Tomorrow is another day. Here's hoping for a good one.

~Lisa~