Why on EARTH would a pregnant woman tell another pregnant woman that she's "Huge" that "there's no small baby in a belly like that" that she "hardly looks pregnant next to a belly that big". Why!?

I try not to get too upset over the 'big' comments. they are bound to happen. I accept that. however...it's hard to hear about a dozen comments like that, over a one hour period, from someone else that is pregnant!!! I am hurt. I really am. And it's bugging me that I feel this way.

I came back with all of my usual comments "Well, I have done this a few times now, and the body remembers, and gets bigger faster" and "I don't exactly have 6 pound babies you know." Or just silence, while everyone else laughed.

When what I really wanted to say was, well, maybe if I smoked a million cigarettes a day I could have stunted my baby's growth too. And, maybe if I made my meals from chocolate and chips all the time, I would have had a small "perfect" belly too. Or perhaps I should have chosen to not eat like you did. Or maybe I should have lived on coffee as my main source of liquid intake...that might have helped HUH???

But NO. I chose to have the relatively healthy meals, evenly spaced out. I chose to have water, and juice. I chose to indulge in snacks rarely. I chose to try to grow a strong healthy baby.

All I can do now if pray that her baby does come out healthy. I pray for this, because I just KNOW that if, God Forbid, anything were to be wrong, I would feel SO insanely guilty for all of my thoughts.

Forgive me for taking it personally. And forgive me for thinking so badly of you. Whom I have know for 7 months.

~Lisa~